Thursday, July 27, 2006
Fear, something that haunt me for life. Fear, i dont know what to do or say. Fear, this time i will not give up even if it means i will lose. Win, this time i will conquer you and never will i want to lose again.
Hate, a word that haunt many lifes. Love, an expression of your joy. Lie, a way for you to cover up your feeling. Lonely, the end result of your choice. Why is something we always asked but answer is something we never know. Do you feel that life is always not going the way you want it to be? Think again, if the world is so peaceful then there wont be so many suicide casese and there wont be so many misfortune. Mis+Fortune=Misfortune hence if you dont miss the fortune maybe you will get your fortune just like Misfortune-Miss= Fortunes.
World is so beautiful and there is no one definate route to success. Why dwell on one path and screw yourself in there? Seek and you shall find, find and you will get. So just go look for it and make full use of your ability. Life is always good if you are willing to try, willing to think positively and not willing to give up. How i wish i am like the grass. Even when you trampled on them or pluck them, they will still grow back in the shortest time possible.
Emotonal is good as it show that you are human with feelings. But over emotional only show that you are weak and are unable to control yourself.Laugh is the best medicine for all worries but sometime crying can be a catalyst in the process for destressing.Life is full of choice and once you make the wrong one, you might or you might not get a second chance.So think before you make any choices.
Lastly dont asked me why... Maybe because i like someone? or maybe i am a gay? or maybe i am not good enough for you? dont guess dont asked just continue to be what we are before.....
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/27/2006 08:21:00 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
The past two weeks is not really very enjoyable. Many things have happen and many people is not in good mood which include myself. Today when we got back our math result, althought everyone looks normal but can feel that they are quite disappointed. Is this situation happening everywhere? Maybe yes, maybe no, but i just wish to tell you guys not to lose heart for we still have 3 more months to perform miracles.
Remember last year when our class was mugging for promotional exam? All of us thought that 1s25 will be gone the next year but most of us make it. This time round we still have 3 more months so why give up now? Let the result be a motivation to work hard and not to demoralised you. We must believe that we are a bunch of kids that will achieve our dreams of entering university just like when we believe that we will still be in this class this year.
It is all about hardwork, we all know how much work we have put in and how much we get from those work. If it didnt meet your expectation then put in double or triple efforts. In my life is always the course chose me and not i chose the course and hence this time i am going to do the reverse and obtain that MARK that will allow me to chose my path and not be at other people's mercy in order to continue this journey.
Junyang, you told me that not many people from your school make it to jc and by coming to srjc althougt its not a great achievement but at least it proves that you are capable of many things. Do not give up now but continue to work extremely hard to produce result in our last major exam--- Prelim and eventually A lvl... work hard for i have faith in you. SMILE my broke
back partner.
Vincent, 14 pointers and A scorer in many subject. Do not let this few times of failure affect your performance. Continue to have that i am superior in study attitude and continue to work hard for you are smart and through hardwork you will make it.Always remain cheerful but dont forget your work Mr manhunt 2009.
Bryan, Naturally smart guy and i believe without anything from me you will still work hard and achieve you GOALS. But do pray to the Lord for wisdom and strength whenever you feel weary. For HE will make a way when there seems to be no way. Trust in the Lord with all you heart and all your soul. Its really nice to have you in our class this year, friends always and continue your air conditional remarks =p. Friends always =D.
Alex, the ever rubbish guy. At times can sense that you are troubled by things and althought i cant do much but still hope that you are fine. We all know that you have put in alot of efforts in your study so dont let those remarks and setbacks affect you. Continue to work hard and put in more effort. I believe that you will be able to produce results. Please dont give up now and always thinking of not studying,for you still have 3 more months to make alot of differents. Come on alex, apply your dota power here and kill them all.
Keith, don't be sad over results. With your character i believe you will not let this setback affect you.GOGOGO and continue to work hard and maybe one day Sotong will fall in love with your hardworking?HAHAHAHA
Wee miang, Come on. Dont always think of going MI, nice meh? you are a hardworking guy and alli have to say is work hard hard hard hard and you will surely make it to university. Show you mom that you make the right decision in chosing this path.
Kim boon, i know how you feel now. My experience is worst that yours with lots of incidents i do not wish to mention again and it took me 1 year plus to just let go. But now the most crucial task is our A lvl. Lets work hard, through our weekly study group and with your ever knowing and right formula you mention during class you will definately make it to university.
Jacquerine, Smart girl. Dont give up so easily, even if you dont know how to do continue to try or ask teacher. Althought you always grumble but i think its just you and without it i will feel weird. So continue to grumble but still work hard. You always think that you cant make it but you still make it to jc and still make it to jc2. Its not luck factor alone that make those things happen, Its your own ability that you make it through always. Come on show us your power and i am here to STRESSS STRESSSS you ^^.
Dinnie aka ling ling. Walking dictionary, lets work hard for this 3 months and put your that 'i want to win that guy' feeling during O lvl into A lvl preparation now. You are really smart but sometimes maybe due to some unknow factors you are unable to perform. Soooo Do it well in our last exam before A lvl.
Tweety charlene, hahaha i just like to hit your head cause you know why lah =p. Hmm generally you are just smart lah. Always say dont know but always know more than all of us-.-'. Act blur ah? haha anyway i just want to wish you all the best for our last school base exam and A lvl.
Wendy leee, i didnt forget you wow. Show them your night stalker power and rule them all not only at night but also in the morning. Don't be like stock market fluctuate up and down. One more chance before A lvl and make it a consistent one and then put your very best in A lvl. You rocks just like rockmoc lizard... =p
Dennis, althought we didnt spend much time with each other but can feel that you are a nice and good friend to have. Lets work hard and prove to Mr ng pak kua that even if we enter srjc we will still be able to make it into university althought through alot of hardwork. Keep it up so that in future we will be able to go kim's house and watch EPL.
Glenn, a very very hardworking guy. With the effort you put in i believe you will make it. Trust yourself and have more confidence. YOU CAN JUST LIKE YOUR NAME SUGGEST, Ten Year Series the ever hardworking and produce result book ^^.
Eileen lum. I dont like you for your are forever so mean to me lah. But have to admit you are smart and even last minute study still can do well.. It make me hate you even more -.-' .. But still like what you always tell me 'Shut up and go study'. Given your ability you will surely make it into university and maybe have a dark prince? Muhahahaha....
Katrina, i still am afraid of you dont know why. Maybe like what charlene says, you got that scare me face. Just joking =p. Anyway just wish to say All the best for prelim and A lvl. And ya cut down on your going out time for this few months. Because everytime i go out i see you outside with people -.-'. Sacrifice this few months to exchange for a life time of happiness. Worth it right? I know its worth it. Smile more so that i wont be afraid of you =D.
Victor, you are forever hardworking so all i can say is continue the hard work and produce your dream result. And ya, take care of health especially during A lvl exam period. I am totally shock when i see the MCs you take and the days you went missing from school.... Take care!!!
Melvin, Study hard and your effort will be rewarded. Dont let a moment of mind block affect your mood for study. Rest a while and contiune to think maybe you will be able to think better.
Sheng an our class commando and he is really in commando dont doubt.Hmm all the best for A lvl and if you continue to improve on your current result you will surely make it. Gogogogo and dont always be so lame lah later i reactivate myself i summon frozenthrone to freeze you.
Junsheng, dont play maple already. Study hard for this few months and you will be able to enjoy more time for games later on. Gogogogo and work hard. All the best for A lvl.
Irene, mysterious girl so i dont know your progress. Only can wish you all the best and good luck.
Lastly, i want to wish myself all the best and hopefully in prelim i am able to perform like what i always did before that incident.
believe we 2S25 will make a difference and will produce result that will make us proud. Lets sacrifice this few months of leisure so as to exchange for a life time of happiness. GOGOGO my friends lets work hard for our future!!! And i truly love our class alot alot alot. No wonder they say jc life will be in you memoreis forever. I treasure this friendship i have with 2s25 for you guys rocks. LALALA.
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/17/2006 09:04:00 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
会有那么一天 好想好好爱你 远远在一起. 相爱多年,平淡生活 相约到永久. 会有那么一天 心动, 思念, 伪装, 你最珍贵. 不后悔, 让我爱你 好好恋爱. 花言巧语,借口,樱花草,幸福毛毛虫,我谁也不怪 依然是朋友 还是喜欢你. 你太诚实,下辈子如果我还记得你 把愛放開 说爱我. 三国恋 错过你错过爱 当我们同在一起 城里的月光 安靜. 突然累了,四面楚歌 依然是朋友. 爱你.
Wow. I am going to eat that stupid gigantic Kit-Kat, who is kind enough to buy it for me? And ya Miss Lala pls dont keep on copy my words leh if not i will have nothing to say le hahahaha.... Have a break have a kit-kat so lets go have our durian buffet at Geylang. Hurray hurray muahahaha this time i am going to hit right on target Miss Tan aka the biggest wolf on earth ... ohhh i scare of big bad wolf hahahaha lalala!!!!
High high i am scare of height!!!
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/16/2006 07:13:00 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Today my mum cleared my room, and unexpectedly i found lots of letters, cards, cds, notes and lots and lots of other things. I once thought that no one cares about me, no one take notice of my presence.
Wrong wrong wrong. All those letters of encouragement, well wishes and some dark secret =p, really make me realise that how fortunate i am. I have a mum whom i can talk to, a sis to call for help and a dad to asked for aids. And most of all lots of FRIENDS OF ALL GENDER AND AGE that i can turn to when i need help. Listening to the cds withs songs and messages they recorded for me i realise that Life is so so so cool. You once said to me, " when a door closed another door will be open for me." Sometime i really wonder why i bother to even remember so many things you said. Log in and not lodge in and bla bla bla.... i guess i am just being stubborn hahaha.
Hooo hooo hoo one more thing, i love my current jc friends 02s25 for they 'ROT' my world =p. Hahahaha and yes sorry to friends whom i am unable to meet for i really dont have much time. If any of you guys and girls miss me just give me a call and maybe and i mean maybe will find time to eat together again.
After 5 years and 5 months and 2 days. I decided to really let go. I am going to live back My Life , the way where only happiness is known to me. Energizer, Never say die.
Hahahaha and please lah next time please imporve the way you girls sing lah. I listen till stomachache =p. Time to chiong my books again.........
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/13/2006 08:41:00 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
In the middle of the night I heard myself shout.
It was my heart coz my mouth was shut.
My heart bled when u told me "I'm sorry,"
That we were incompatible just that I wasn’t wary.
I had to agree to end this feeling,
But my heart protested by all its bleeding.
I need your love to keep me breathing,
Without your love I dun feel like a living...
I want to know why, u wanted to leave so abruptly,
Decided to follow up behind ur steps secretly..
There...I saw you giving your heart away,
And crushed my heart along the way.
As time passes, the heart is healed..
But scars remain hard to conceal.
Kisses n hugs can only be reviewed,
By the memories that's left so few.
I will always remember this sentence, "Life still goes on, even if you stop yourself for someone, neither he/she nor the world will stop moving for you." I guess what my friends said was right... dumbass doing dumb thing but its ok for i am perfectly fine now and even have a Gay partner Mr Tan Jun Yang... =p
Just joking, now i just wish to start my life afresh and like that kuku girl and ya Mr Tan are you honoured? Your name is on my blog leh =p... just joking for he is definately a good friend but definately not a good gay partner -.-'...
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/12/2006 08:44:00 PM
Monday, July 10, 2006
Its been a very long time since i really look at a girl and actually take the effort to think. At times myself also thought that i am Gay...... hilarious? Noooooooo!!!!! i hate to be a gay cant imaging me and another guy? OH MY TIAN please just stab me in my heart!
Amazingly, some kuku girl with a retarded smile attracted me! Reason? I just like her character and her presence make me feel good and i will smile like a retarded kid too even though i am already one. Hmmmm i simply like that feeling and i think i like her and i mean Really LIKE.
Its ok i shall just continue to make friend with her till the day i think i am ready or when she think that she is ready! Lalalalalala and dont ask me who cause i will just say i am gay =D
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/10/2006 09:53:00 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Finally........
After almost 3 and a half years i decided to revive my poor little blog.
But i guess after 3 months will desert this place once more.
Reason:This kuku blog is very time consuming to maintain and being a lazy
kid, i doubt i will have the will to continue this tiring task.
Aiya, i have poor command of lauguage especially english for i know nuts about grammer so
you know? There might be people out there criticising my english standard and hences i will make all story short to reduce my chance of making mistakes and thus being comment on....
I promise when my language is as good as dinnie/bryan/vincent/jac and bla bla bla then i will write longer entries... hahahaha!!!! Meanwhile i just want to say Hi i am back and Bye, for world cup match is showing soon....
I-caught-a-butterfly at 7/09/2006 12:43:00 AM